Life Goes On

I am sitting in Paradise Bakery, where I have been for the past 5 1/2 hours working on Bible study with my staff team and meeting with students. And for the first day in two weeks, I haven't done anything related to the break-in. Life is officially getting back on track. Now, I know that there will be more things to deal with (shelves need to be hung over ugly black handles, walls need to be painted where door-jambs were ripped off, the insurance company needs to be contacted once again, files will continue to need to be replaced), but it's a wonderful feeling to be able to start to focus once again on what I'm doing here.

And what am I doing here? That's not meant to be some deep, philosophical question, it's just one I've been asking myself a lot recently. You see, I'm in the process of trying to figure out what comes next for me. My committment to the Navigators ends in May. Do I continue on staff? Do I get a different job? Do I stay in Tucson? Do I move to a new city? My mind has been in sort of a constant buzz of thought on these questions. But, much like a break-in can cause me to be stuck moving backwards, trying to replace things from the past, pondering my future can cause me to live in fast-forward. And with all of this past and future, what happens to the present? It gets a bit lost in the shuffle. I don't want it to get lost in the shuffle. I want to live fully in the present, doing the things which God has set out for me to do.

This weekend I get to spend some time away with some of the women in my Bible study. I'm praying that God will use it in ways beyond what I could ask or imagine, and that He will help me to focus on the task at hand...while still planning for the future.